change has its story =)

so we all know i was abit screwed up.
abit ny. =P

2006,
the first cut was the deepest

then in 2007,
i found my candy =)

and in 2008,
there was just those three months

and 2009 came along,
and i realised,

they were all there for me all those times,
they made me feel better than how my 'releases' made me feel



and so,

in 2010, and half of 2009,

i've been a happy happy 16 going on 17 =)

yay me. ;)

the crazy, the crazier. the craziest (LEILA) hehehe.

my boyfriend got to it before i could take the picture.
thanks for the vouchers Yennie! =)

I WANT THIS DRESS!
Niichi

the usual toilet camwhoring

=) ♥

when life hands you lemons,

make fucking lemonade

when life hands you shit,

you make life worse to make yourself feel better.

today fucking sucked.

*so much for hating the usage of fuck too much on a blog post.*

well, fuck

oh how i could just drop dead right now

she would say yes

just that one day, would be a memory served to last a lifetime,
cause that one day would mean everything in the world,
that one day, would have all the love and care.
all the sweetness, purely from the heart.

today, that's the day.
tomorrow shall be made of today's perfection.

no matter how the heart would ache, and how the tears would fall,
if today were real,
fate shall decide someday.

just one day, we'll be okay

le fried ice cream,

oreo flavour.

yesterday was Geraldine aka's 2nd wedding dinner.

we had fun =)

today i went to church, went for class, *finally*

hehe.

i was so so happy to see everyone,

Bernard, Natania, Natalia, Marsha, Cheryl, Ian and Lawson.

awwwww! ♥

so so happy.

i heart heart heart you guysss =)

they can try honey, and fail later =)

Sayang,

I love you. You know i do. And with everything said and done, i've decided to be with you for as long as it takes.

Our love grows day by day. I can't possibly imagine life without you. It'll be so incomplete, quiet, dull... Everything today and everyday isn't like.

Remember the first time you told me you liked me, and all i said was "okay."?*hehe, im sorry.*

From that little "okay", i now love you more than i can even begin to explain.

Last night, i realised how much i needed you in my life. The whole of today, i felt like something was missing. And now, i feel complete and never happier cause i know that,

No matter how people try to make us fight, no matter how much they hate seeing us being together, no matter how hard they would try to break us up.

they would keep failing, failing and failing.

We both know we're stronger than that.

I Love You ♥

ask for martini, they give you beer.

the wedding cake ;)

ohhh... looks may be decieving,

fyi, i DID NOT PHOTOSHOP this picture to make me look effing skinny..

i just look like it.

the boyfriend was killing me over it.

like,

"baby, eat la sayang!"

i am still as fat as ive always been! its the angle of photgraphy.

serious. =)

but like, look at my chest. flat shit. how sad.

aih..daddy...

i told him to stay off le cigs.

hehe.

Taiping was awesome. it was like, a perfectly good, super tiring, fast, holiday.

Geraldine aka looked so sweet in her wedding gown. oh, i love weddings!

the dinner was real nice.

the entertainers, were two old men. 70 plus. but omfg! dont under estimate oldies. he was friggin singing " I got a feeling", and "Down" okayyy? hehe.

the wedding cake, was omg, DELICIOUS. an 82 year old aunty made it. she makes wine too.

this weekend ive learned that old people do great things. i love old people. they're like, so cute.

today,

i went to the immigration office. with like, a long line of people. i was supposed to be in school by 11. and i never did go anyway. i got home at like 2 something. im sorry Miss Tan! =(

blame Putrajaya and the immigration.

then daddy took me to go buy books. omg. school books. im gonna die studying but wathehell. =)

lastly,

Happy FOUR Months Boyfriend!

all you've done is make me smile,

i know i complain.

and nag.

and rag at you.

and merajuk like crazy.

but I LOVE YOU.

so much.

=)

♥

disappointment takes years to achieve

después de todos estos años, usted es menos de lo que yo esperaba

=)

Mom had to pick me earlier from school today.

i was sick. still am.

doc says i have a throat infection. i know, gross right?

white spots in my throat. bleigh.

anyways,

i slept a whole 5 hours.

and i still dont feel any better.

im gonna TRY not missing school tomorrow.

then Ms Tan will put on her scary face =/

ive hated longer than ive loved. =)

but now i love unconditionally.

...i'll make every second count cause i miss you

whenever you're not around...

read between the lines

you were great today Davyd! wheeee ~ im so proud you're my friend.

im sick. its the 2nd week of January and im sick.
i just realised this morning that i didnt sleep pass 8 for a whole week.
and slept pass 1 every night too.
so yes, mommy says "dont get enough sleep somemore lah."

i miss my boyfriend =(

gumdrops

today after school the girls and i went to jusco with Andy too. Vhi met us there later. We watched Avatar. sooooo awessooommeeeee....

then i got two more piercings. so now ive got 6....muahahaha. oh yeshhh.

im off to sleep.

goodnite world!

at the end its what inspires you

Happy Twelfth Day of Christmas.

yes, i colour coordinate =)

if you're wondering what they are, they're lights,
the plug sucks, thus, i cant find a way to fix this shit.

this was the sky at 7pm today.
im lucky ive got a perfect view from my balcony.
it makes my day feel a whole lot better

when they were still red and unchipped

im yet to find out what flower this is.
its planted in my cousin's garden,
and she doesnt know what flower it is.
it was blooming one day and dead the next.
kinda like LIFE right?

i wanna get drunk on a beach.
and lay on the beach and make,
what Tomoyoshi calls em,
"beach angels"

... and IM the one who's supposed to be friggin' PMS-ing. wth?

Just cos you're mad at something really small, dont take it out on me. wathehelll??
men pms.
urghhh.

doesnt seem so long ago

.this is how far we've come.

*that's 2009*

2006, Form 1

2007, Form 2

2008, Form 3

2009,

Form 4

2010.

pending...

my lips like sugarrrrrr.

i never blogged much about Christmas.

well, mom made roast and mashed potatoes and salad.

we were at my Cousin Rina's place.

we had awesome Christmas dinner.

and my cousins neighbour, made this oh-so-yummy honeycomb cake,

thats what you get when its topped with icecream, going down with wine.

today was the day we officially turned form five. oh gosh i remember our form one days.

they are sooo...

long gone.

but today started off fine.

A brand new Year

Could you list down all the sucky things that happened in 2009?

okay, take that list and burn ittttt.

its a new year babehhhh.

for you, NOW, 5S people, we can friggin drive this year. ngahhh~

and we also can sit for darn SPM =.=

ohh joy.

oh wells, my new year's was awesome.

i spent it with my mom, my cousins, my aunts and uncles and G-G (granma)

the Eurasian Association organised a dinner n dance of 550 people in Berjaya Hotel. the ballroom was so pretty with ribbons n helium balloons,

Reid and i sucked in helium after the party n started singing. haha.

i SANG, yes, in front of those 550 people. i was nervous like shit kayyyyy....

THANK GOD i had a super awesome support system. haha.

we danced, and drank, and danced, and drank,

oh and i won a bamboo mat, hahahaha,

lucky draw... yayyyy.

all in all, Penang has been a great trip and im real glad.=)