who knew?

i'll keep you locked in my head, until we meet again,
i wont forget you my friend, what happened?
that last kiss, i'll cherish, until we meet again,
when time makes, it harder,
i'll wish i could remember,
but i'll keep your memory, you visit me in my sleep,
my darling,
who knew?

Threats online.

recently i have found that there have been many cases of Threats Online.

making threats online. on blogs.

if people actually dont bother reading them, its made sure that they're read.

• ONE, its an offense by law, yes, look it up, you WILL and CAN be sued with every possibility made possible. especially with proof. (was in the NST papers few months back)
  

• TWO, you WILL BE PROSECUTED if any action is taken by the threat.

• THREE, any caused incident by another party within the particular time, will make YOU, PRIMARY SUSPECT.

• FOUR, under-age aquaintances, have NO EXCEPTIONS.
  

how do i know this?
Uncle in Police Department, Special Branch (WHO HAS A COPY OF YOUR THREAT). and a lawyer Aunt.
and my Family.
and oh yes, they've seen your masterpiece.
they dont think it's funny.

and yes, ive done research.

please go to these following links. READ THEM fully!

Death Threat made by blogger to Three Judges.
Blogger's Code of Conduct

you CAN be reported and WILL.

you may think, it's nothing. well it is. a BIG thing.
i suggest, you lay low, and stay out of other people's business.
silly things like girlfriends, boyfriends, calling names,school social problems, need not lead to death or rape threats.

if a physical attack is involved, then it should be reported


its done and over. i figured its a waste of my time.
so with any offense you've taken, i apologise.
but i'll make this clear, any further action, and you lose.

WE STAY OUT OF YOUR WAY, YOU STAY OUT OF OURS.

comments or posts that involve me or any of my friends on this page or any other page, WILL BE REPORTED.

Thank You for your Co orperation.
No names mentioned here, take note. =)

Peace be with you.

ever had that feeling when you just feel this gush of depression land on you? and it crushes you to the ground and you're really trying to pull yourself together but you cant? cause it's too heavy?
and you're trying to figure out what the hell is it but you're just so blardy lost?
yeah... well, i feel it right now?
and crapppp im hating it.
it has no reason. maybe it does but i cant explain it.
im hoping no one srews up my Monday.

i miss my Dad. i dont know why.
and, i miss hugs from some people
i sound really pathetic now but yea

i really did

sometimes i feel so shallow,
when i read your messages you send me saying you miss me in the middle of the night,
i feel like it's a big boulder hitting me in my sleep,
then you're all i think about through the day,
no i dont miss you,
but you're making me go round and round this episode i cant seem to understand.
and when you're busy you act like you're not there.
when i know you are.
so what is it you're trying to tell me?
what are you doing?
do you really still think of me or is this a way of torturing me?
i really cant understand these things you're doing.
its painful, not because i miss you
because you're making me a play doll you can just man handle
im sick of it.
if you really mean what you say,
when you send me random messages, saying you miss me,
do it sincerely.
i dont need to know honestly,
and i dont feel anything about it.
so make up your mind.

just because i have a lot of guy friends and hang out with them often. take close pictures and what not, doesnt make me a slut, whore or whatsoever.
so yeah.

Sunny side ups

today i went to church, for Sunday class, and i was the ONLY girl.
with these four nutheads i adore. =)
Ian, Richard, Bernard, Lawson.
they were so nice. i had no transport back,
and they walked me back home.
before that we went to Centro to eat then back to my place.

my mom fried an egg with two yokes.
twins!!
hehe. so cute... twin chicks. gosh, saying that makes it sound do horrible, that we're eating little baby chickens. =(

u think ur confused?

you're like this mystery,
one minute, you're missing me at 4 in the morning,
the next,
you're a jerk and pretending i mean nothing to you.

Family Day

just a few snapshots. there were so many i got lazy to upload all of it =)
we had fun. we sold our books! haha

thursday blues

the morning started of with dullness. i dont know why but we all felt like crap. maybe it was the weather. but after recess, when the nuggets, fries, roti canai and other food started kicking in, we were back to normal. see what food does for you. oh such importance. =)
we practiced dancing.
then i told Kian Huat, Kuan Jon, Alvin and Hong Xiang that i'll date them on shifts for prom. half an hour per person. haha. the moment was funny. i know it doesnt sound funny.

Family day is on Saturday. People were supposed to bring old unwanted books for the booksale we're having. but noooooo. urgh.
thank you Leila, and Yenny, and Ashley. oh yes! and miss Tan. =)

i bought clothes today...
i cant wait for tomorrow. i'll be staying over at the Indon house and we're gonna go watch Transformers....wheeeee~~~~ i bet its gonna be nice.

i still have Kuan Jon's written 'Poo Poo' on my hand. and yes, i did shower okay? it just didnt come out.
had greeeattt dinner. i dont know why but i enjoyed such simple food. =)

i miss going to church,
i miss Richard. haha.
he says he's coming on Saturday.
i miss the rest of my monkeys from church too.

aubrey's out...
further reports on Saturday. =)

thosai and italli

this goes out to 4S. i dont think anyone else would get this.



Mr EST thinks thosai and italli (not sure of spelling), but its indian food keep us awake.

Monday,
doors open... HE walks in..

all 30 of our heads are slummed 'asleep' on our desks. (no one really gives a shit)
=)
he says: take AMway vitamins! go all vegetarian! keep away from meat! eat thosai and italli for breakfast!

4s: hahahaha!

last week,

- someone said something slacky -

he says: stay away from all the chinese food, it makes you sleepy. eat thosai and italli.

Krishnan: i dont eat thosai and italli for breakfast.

he says: SHUT UP!! im not talking to you.

haha. poor krishnan.

we did a survey, haha. thosai and italli makes you sleepy. carbs...

oh yes, and a word from the 'wise', Bhasmati Rice makes you handsome!!! haha.

say that you love me

I thought i could forget you just like that, looks like i cant,
what sucks is after December, you're gone. forever.
then there'll be me, watching you get on that flight.
i know you dont know this, you never will,
it's deep, going deeper.
im just gonna make every moment with you count.

Monday

early morning, half the class kena for no name tag... aiyoyo...haha. but we were sniggering away til assembly ended. hehe.

class was the usual chaos. muahaha.. the best was during Aru's period. gosh, it was so funny, when he came in, we had all our heads down on the table and we were so silent. it annoyed him so bad. then he started with his 'thosai and italy' story. haha. that was the laugh of the day.
we're all such naughty people. haha.

i had fun today.

i stil have 100 sentences! goodness, i was like doing and doing and still it didnt finish. haha.
and the last 100 is like definition on consistency and accuracy which is like long long long.
haha.
crappy crap.

im hungry. mom cooked chicken soup. =)
im off for dinner.

David Archuleta's new song

Tell me what you did to me,
Just air beneath my feet.
Didn't even notice we were miles above the ground.
I'm not afraid of heights,
We crashed into the sky,
Didn't know that I could feel the way that I do now.
I'm not asking for an explanation,
All I know is that you take me away,
And you show me how to fly.

Nothing brings me down,
When you're around.
It's like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you're here,
It's zero gravity.
When things get messed up,
You lift my head up,
I get lost in the clouds.
There's no sense of time with you and I,
It's zero gravity.

The edges fade away,
'Till there's no more shades of gray,
You only have to whisper anything at all.
You opened up my eyes,
You turned my lows to highs,
And that's the only way that I know how to fall.
Not gonna analyze and try to fight it,
Don't even care if it makes no sense at all,
Cause with you I can fly.

mixed feelings

today, Justine and Miki came over to my place. they met me at Centro.
we talked and ate nuggets. hahha.
oh gosh, Friday, i went to Centro with Andysen,Vivi, Cindy, Prias, Budi, Detin, Devi and the rest.
then Saturday with Kuan jon, Sharon and Alvin. and today too. haha. i think im getting a little bored of it already. =)
shittt...tomorrow school again. Mr. Mani's coming back. which means back to Chemistry. i have a feeling this week wont be as good as last week.
next Saturday is family day. Richard's coming. i love richard. haha.
ian n lawson wil come to i guess.
im hungry.
i stil have 150 sentences of Physics corrections to do. due Tuesday.
Mr. Sara claims that writing each 50 times will have us memorize it. nonsense. 20 times is enough.
50 is just torture.
i miss Marsha, Cheryl, Richard, Ian and Lawson.
haha.

ive been thinking about these four months left with Fierra, Vivi, Cindy, Andysen, Budi and Prias and shittt its like so sad.
Davyd too. he'll be going to Singapore.
and we 4s people have less than 2 years left together. i know one year went by like wind. gosh.

separation is so drastic.

early saturday

i woke up at 7 and got ready for school.
there were only 12 of us from class today. but we syok. haha
we had this seminar thingy. it wasnt really that boring.
Leila,Alvin, Kuan Jon, Sharon and myself hung out the whole day together.
we played this game where we had to go around the roundabout and it was my class boys against us girls.
the girls won! i think
after school, Sharon, Kuan Jon, Alvin and me decided to go have lunch at centro
then go to my place and lepak. =)
and so we did so.

sharon and me

sharon's and kuan jon's

sharon's black pepper lamb pie

alvin and our drinks.
i dont know whats with the pose,
haha but i still lurve u. =)

alvin, me, kuan jon

my gourmet pie

urgh... do u see that rm70.80 there?
we're suppose to pay that.
service charge was 7 bucks and all the guy did was roll his eyes at Sharon!
we ended up paying rm81.40!
money is so depressing even when its food.

then we walked over to my place,
we talked for like, 2 hours then everyone went home =)

every step you take closer to me,

is like a drug that overwhelms me,

and i cant help it.





shall i keep you?

today.

Class of 4S 2009

its been a good day. this morning i thought today would be depressing but it turned out to be the total opposite. it was great.
us, being the usual chaotic, awesome, class,
made our way to laughter.

thinking about the fact that we all only have a year left together to make chaos, its so so sad.
we're one big family full of love, and its just great when we're all together.

right now, i just dont feel like i want this year to end. but guess what? it's only going faster.

we've all got school tomorrow. so im off to bed.
signing off....

sunshine turned to rain

i thought it would have been over since i havent seen you in 2 weeks
but no, im not ready,
is it just me?
i cant tell
i wana tell u so badly, really do,
cos this feeling turned out to stay,
im so confused
half my friends say dont,
the rest say go for it,
im like, whatttt?
goodness.
this stupid silly feeling is gonna end up being a meltdown,
yes, im very sure.
but still i cant keep it to myself,
look at it this way,
you're probably not even thinking of me anymore.
it was just ONE day right?
the best ever though
who am i kidding?
after all, 7 months and you're gone,
forever.

wheee...school starts soon. gosh. i cant wait. but then i wouldnt get to go online though. that would suck.
i went shopping today.
and im back to klang tomorrow.

i miss mom.
=)

oh oh...i cant wait to see everyone on monday, the indons only come back to school on tuesday. i miss them....*grins*

aish..mosquitoes are biting me.
chao.

aubrey....
wants to name her daughter, when she has one, Fabrianna Suzanne.....
her son, Jayden Hilary...


and,
i just saw proof of unrest spirits.
unbelievable.

oops

wow... holidays are almost ending,
im going to Malacca tomorrow,
i actually just realised on Saturday that i've got 4 Karangan Panjang, 2 rumusan, and 10 modules to finish up.
oh, and not forgetting 4 written moral essays.
kill me...
i just reminded Kuan Jon.
haha
he forgot too..
i've been chatting, facebooking and doing other stuff online with the modules infront of me.
ive got 3 more to go!
hehe.

i dont think so

ive made up my mind,
im not gona tell you
cos i know what the answer will be
so im gonna keep it this way.
miss you

memories

im missing 2008.
six more months and 2009 ends.
how fast time flies.
i wanna be 15 again.


gosh, there's this weird dude messaging me
i hate people asking me to guess who.
there are like 7 billion people on the planet
how am i to guess?!

disappointment

people change.
one minute you're the greatest friend.
calling me everyday to check up on me when i was sick.
coming all the way to meet me and spend even though little, at least 20 minutes with me,
we would text each other quite often. and when you're in that new world,
we'd still chat online when i'm on holiday.
it all ended when April came in.
a whole year we kept up this routine, without fail.
a day after u come back, i'd know,
and we'd plan almost immediately to meet.

how fast a year has gone and passed.
where are you now?
the furthest from me,
not a single word since you left.
the last word i heard from your mouth was,
"take care yea aubrey, im gonna miss you, i'll definitely call when im back next."
and you're back, where's that call?
i texted, no reply.

did you forget?
who are you?
and its not just me you're doing this to.
your own bestfriend?
who's been there for you through alot,
who hasnt done a thing to hurt u or offend u,
and you ignore him to?

you've really let me down,
and i never expected this from you,
im gonna miss you.

omg. i havnt done any writing for a week and my writing really sucks now. iisssh

will you love me if i love you?

im afraid to tell you,
i see you face to face and i stutter,
im afraid our friendship would be lost.
yet i wanna tell you before these 6 remaining months are gone.
but also i rather not lose you than tell you.
cos ur really unpredictable.
im confused. help!

randomness of the day

we just decide randomly to have a picnic
=)

love you Chels

Saturday...

meet the pigs

picture spoiler.
uncle dick =)
(my kid shall call him that)

my best girls
Marsha and cheryl

eat and eat for joy

slackers

=)

meet Ian Darryl Schubert.

i love u people.
=)

i guess it was just for awhile

you and i, we were pretty close,

everytime u came back, i'd be a call away,

a drive away,

the day u went back,

u promised u'll tell me when u got back,

wow,

i havnt heard from you since then.

not a word,

i thought we were friends.

you've done nothing but ignore me,

im sorry if ive offended you,

if i even did.

just somehow wish you'd go back to being who you were,

oh well,

time changes people.

i'll see you when i see you, B.

my Saturday

yes, its 3.30 a.m. i should be sleeping but im awake. i just woke up =)

im at Chelsea's place. mom's got a wedding so im spending the night here.

today's 9 hour camp was basically a seminar. it was okay... i guess. not as nice as what we expected but it was good.

this NLP dude, Kenneth Martinus was speaking.

Richard spent most his time lying asleep on my shoulder, and the rest of us were just...there.

after the seminar we walked to 7E. omg! Marsha actually followed! haha (to everyone's surprise) i know, its no big deal, but we've got la our things. haha.

=) i just love her la. she's like the innocent sweetheart amongst us monsters.

*pictures shall be updated 2mrw*

later in the morning, we, Chelsea's family and I, will be going to Crab Island. yes, Pulau Ketam. =)

we're going on a boat ride.

i cant stop sniffing and sneezing. it happens all the time when im awake after 1 a.m. its weird and annoying.

urgh.

Love like this is playing on the radio. yeah, Chels and i are feeling the loveeee....

i want the sneezing to stop.

and im missing him again.

Chels changed my phone wallpaper. haha. he looks dumb and i look dumber.

Perfect =)

im so bored.
blueeekkkk

addicted

so i've been watching this 12 pm indon series with my mom on Ntv 7 everyday, Dara Manisku.
and i've become addicted. it's nice. and this guy, Bertrand Antolin, i think he's gorgeous. haha.
this is really random but i just noticed how good looking he is today.

what if?

what if i told you how i felt?
would you freak out?
or would you say you felt it too?
im curious.

miss you

really random.

*hint hint*

he loves me. he loves me not?

im missing you.
your sweetness that melts me.
so get your ass back here.
=)

holidays

holidays are sucky. i mean if u dont get to go anywhere.
im bored to death.
have been spending my hours online and watching tv.
such wonderful past times.
and filling myself with yogurt drinks and vitagen.
im missing him and i cant wait till he comes back. =)
hope my dad doesnt cancel Cherating. i'll just die.
serious.
i could take Kuan Jon's advice

aubrey says:
im bored la
help me

Kuan Jon says:
look out window
n jump down

aubrey says:
=|

Kuan Jon says:
or look at clouds la
it'll calm you down
trust me

i shall go watch the clouds. chao.

im looking at you from a distance,
the windows are shut,
but my heart's wide open,
i want you to look back,
but you're laughing in your chair,
with your friends,
they all know,
but its my secret with them.

i want you,
and i love you,
every thing you do,
when you look at me,
when you're teasing me,
i love the way you do,
all those things to me,
when you're picking me up from the ground,
and cleaning my cuts,
im looking at you and
you're all i want

there im lying next to you,
we're listening to our favourite song,
everybody's watching what's on the TiVo,
but we're busy in our own world,
its crazy how we cut out the sounds,
and stare at eachother till its dawn.

and no, Dan, this is not for u. =)
(just so nobody gets mixed up)